Puzzled?

This past Thanksgiving I spent some time with my mentor and his family. There were some difficult situations in my life and I needed to get away and get some godly advice from him. I didn’t understand what was happening with me.

Hobbies I’ve enjoyed for years didn’t appeal to me anymore. Even my favorite pastime of biking seemed more like a chore than relaxation. It seemed like things were changing so fast in my life, the year was a blur.

He told me we all go through seasons in life when things change. He told me not to worry about it and take it to God. So I went for a hike in the countryside by a mountain reservoir.

It was there that I cried out to God for clarity... for healing from the heartache and disappointments of 2016. Last year was pretty stressful for me and I’m so ready for the new year and all it will bring, I’m amazed that I’m still breathing. 2016 get on outta here! If it was tough on you, this blog is for you.

Personally, I’m hoping for a breakthrough in 2017. And I’m crazy enough to dare to believe that God will do something different and great in the new year, because the sun is rising on a new year.

In those quiet moments by the water, while the sun shined and the fall leaves fell, God reminded me that He takes the good and bad in life and makes it work for my good (Romans 8:28-30). Just like with the seasons, God has a way of putting things together like a puzzle to paint a more beautiful picture.


Puzzles?

Growing up as an Army brat, my family traveled a lot. So I spent a lot of time playing board games and putting together puzzles. Not the ones with the big pieces that seem to fit together perfectly. The ones with what seemed like a billion small puzzle pieces.

I remember one time I was struggling with one and got so frustrated that I pushed it off the table and began crying. My father came to me and told me to calm down and breathe.

He told me to step back, wait, focus and look at the picture on the box. He told me not to rush and it would be easier to see the bigger picture.


And that’s how God works in life. He has spent eternity putting things together. The creation story (Genesis 1:1-31) is all about how God takes different things and puts them together to make something new and the Holy Spirit is there anointing it (1:2). Man, I wanna go back.

Some theologians believe it only took a thousand years, while scientists believe it was longer, a billion years. God took His time to get it just right and He took it to the next level.

His expertise isn’t limited to nature. Moses explains God made humans different (27) and later brought them together in a holy marriage (Genesis 2:24-25). I know it’s not politically correct, but Scripkture is clear marriage was created for two different beings, not the same.

Evolution even supports this. Yes, it takes time to get things right in a relationship. That’s why I continue to wait for the right woman. You can’t get something right out of the wrong person no matter how hard you try, Lord have mercy.

Wrong?

History has a way of repeating itself. And this is the biggest lesson I’ve learned from 2016, it’s okay to be different from the person you’re dating. It’s alright if you don’t always see eye to eye. It’s even okay if you fight more than you talk.

Because arguing is a form of communication, it’s honesty at its rawest. While I’m being honest, I have to admit I really don’t want to date somebody just like me. I’d be bored to death. Variety makes life more interesting, sameness makes it bland, although comfortable. I’ve spent most of my life looking for the wrong things in my relationships. But, now I’m learning to let God put the pieces of the puzzle together, because IDK the big picture.

Besides, the older I get the more I seem to change. Yet, I’m learning to be content with what God is doing in my life (Hebrews 13:5). I’m learning to let God take the good and bad parts of my life and do what I keep getting wrong, that’s amazing Grace. If we really trust Him, we won’t be so puzzled.